hunger strike day two : starvation suicide or activism?
neighbors complain when they hear nature at their gates. coyotes coming closer, cats eating birds, i heard there’s overgrowth further up, make a report.
‘next door’, bigi minx, apple chapbook, minxdistro
black cat walked in again, (like a buddy ready to move in)
birds around my face, (less than many days)
trashrobot is solarpunk and everyone’s futures.
incense & the madness — every single person in the house needs their souls cleansed regularly.
painting the hair makes me want whole ass walls as canvases.
idk where the time is for rollin ladders & the casual intimacy of bein chased away with wet hands. every time i fuck on some tagger all i get is some pens that run out right after them & fear of an itch til post-clinic visit.
final apple has not happened. do not want to die of dental rot but the cards been pulled; need a better medic than indigents can get. called up that girl aka the baddest aka discordia aka kallisto apple chunker.
second of august:
oil pulling this mornin hurt too bad to manage. it doesn’t feel better after when everything is bleeding.
boundaries — im crying at the word. how often practiced bein sleepy and active in my own peer group that it made me exhausted when parenting? i have failed them in many ways and can’t imagine anything aside from critical mass now, today, tonight, to make them different than bitter adults tortured at black sites.
my children will never be left to the wolves that wear tshirts of their faces so i must master dentistry, pull all my teeth then do my own brain surgery in the coming days.
love life — who reached out today as hunger support crew : no one
who i reached out to after sending sad mail : no one
us quatrians have elements in doorways, windowframes and at triple crests (T— intersections, idk what they are in english?) because hecate is within and no space may be ours unless liminal.
ACTIVELY AWAKE: 6 am to midnight
intakes:
coffee with brown sugar
thermos kratom
water (well, ice melted)
citrus kombucha
OIL PULL : never happened
